I am having my ass kicked by depression again. I slammed into that brick wall yesterday afternoon and I have felt black and blue ever since. I got about two hours sleep and it was broken sleep at that. My motivation and enthusiasm for anything is gone. I have tried watching two films so far since 4am and I got about twenty minutes into each of them and I lost the plot.
What I don’t get is that I take my pills and injections every day. I take them religiously and hardly ever miss a dose yet still I get these overwhelming dark periods. I honestly thought that taking these pills would help. I guess after 6 years I should know better. I feel like giving up and going non medication and seeing if that works for me. I honestly, at this point in time, don’t see how it could get any worse.
Why does it get harder with time? Why do things never seem to get any better? Just Why?
Until Next Time…