A Perfect Representation

It’s not very often, in fact it’s damn near impossible to come anywhere close to representing someone else’s words in a different media and still keep the meaning, feeling and emotion resonance of the original statement, but Gavin Aung has done that with Bill Hick’s It’s Just A Ride speech over on his website Zen Pencils .

I had to repost it over here. I read it through the first time and I was just taken aback totally by how well he had channelled the meaning of the bit. I think you can understand how much this speech means to me as it’s not only the name of this blog but I also have It’s Just A Ride tattooed on my arm (FOR LIFE).


Hick Cartoon Excerpt

An except from the cartoon. Click the image to go to Zen Pencils to see the full cartoon

Many Thanks To Zen Pencils for renewing my inspiration.

Until Next Time…

Benefits Change Everything

Yesterday was a big day for people who claim ESA (Employment Support Allowance). There was big debate in the House Of Commons about upcoming changes to the way the people who are claiming the benefit are tested. For more information about the changes read the (as always) excellent Diary Of A Benefit Scrounger . Sue Marsh lays out the changes and explains why the changes are going to be so devastatingly bad for disabled people.

Last year I made a promise that I was going to become more active in a more political way. At that time I was in a pretty good place and my benefit claim had been settled and I was ready to take the fight head on. I wanted to try and make a difference. I didn’t exactly achieve my goal but I was more active last year that I had been before.

Fast forward to the start of the Autumn last year and disabled politics took over the headlines again and things started to ramp up again. I started takiing more interest and I retweeted tweets and I read and commented on blog posts. Looking back it was a fairly lame attempt at getting involved. I knew the issues and I gave them a passing glance. As the year came to a close my health was taking a turn for the worse and I started to close down again. Weeks went by when I didn’t even open my Twitter clients and when I did I would usually just skip over the majority of tweets that had accumalated between my visits and maybe keep up for an hour or two and then I’d leave again for however long it was until I got curious again.

Now the debate rages again. Changes are afoot and I find myself getting those same pangs in my gut that I got when the talk of changing from Incapacity Benefit to ESA. It’s a messed up situation. DLA is being scrapped in favour of Personal Indipendance Payments and Work Capability Assessments are being reviewed and things are starting to worry me again.

Money is tight at the moment for everyone. At home here it’s crazy, I don’t think we (as a family) have been this broke. I don’t say this for pity or anything like that. This is just a plain fact. Circumstances are such here that Linda’s benefit is lumped with my benefit and she has just been sent the forms to fill out for a reassessment by ATOS. I am unsure what they are going to reassess her for as she has been told that she is no longer eligeble for benefits as she had claimed for over a year, hence why I am claiming for her on my claim. It’s a screwed up situation and to be honest it has added to my stress levels.

I read around on Wednesday about the upcoming debate yesterday and I got lost in my head about what “could be” and “what will be” and it scared the living crap out of me. I lost my internal shit and realised that I really was spiralling back into that place that put my Mental Health in a shocking state when I was being changed over. I have had to step back. I am making the choice not to get into the state I got into last time. I feel I am moving forward in making steps to get me out of the mire that has built up around me and my family for the past 8 or so years. I can’t afford anything to derail this plan.

To those brave campaigners, you have my full support but for now, it has to be silent support.

Until Next Time…

Brain Dump

I mentioned sometime last year that I was starting a new group at the CMHT. The name of the group is STEPPS. It’s not MY group I am just a participant in the group. As you can tell from the link the group is aimed at BPD patients or in “my case” Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (eye-roll). Anyway, whatever the reason I am there I have decided to make the most of the chance I have and try and get some new tools to get me through the minefield that is my life at times. Continue reading