About Me

I realised that I had a page that told (briefly) about my life with Bipolar but I didn’t have a page that told you about me. So here you go a potted run down of who I am and what makes me tick.

Well I am 37 years old. I never thought I would get this old and each day that goes past is just one step closer to 40. It’s a weird ominous feeling I get when I think I am going to be 40 sooner than I was 30 (?)

I am a BIG music fan. I have been ever since I was 14. At 14 music really took over my life. Most 14 year old boys were busy thinking about Girls Girls Girls, I was listening to Girls Girls Girls by Motley Crue. I didn’t think anything of it. I was never more happy than I was sitting in the park with my Walkman blaring in my ears. Back then it was all Bon Jovi, Iron Maiden and AC/DC. My first concert was a Bon Jovi one and my first concert that I didn’t care that I went on my own was an Iron Maiden one (Donington 92 for the record.) I ate slept and drank music. I read Kerrang every week like it was my Bible. I knew when the bands I liked were going to be touring and I knew if they were coming near I could get a ticket through my local record shop who were an outlet for Way Ahead Records Concert trips. (Way Ahead was a record shop in Nottingham that catered mainly for metal heads and they used to organise coaches for concerts all over the country. It was a genius idea that I can’t imagine still being aloud to happen due to god knows how many health and safety laws.)

My musical tastes have moved on these days. I still listen to all the old bands I used to but not as much and as rabidly. These days you are more likely to find me lost in a Pink Floyd bootleg that is older than I am. When I became ill things started changing for me. I started craving things to distract me. The 4 minute rock song just wasn’t doing it for me any more. As soon as I would get into a certain vibe with a song, it was over. I wanted more. It was from there that I started looking more into Progressive Rock. Pink Floyd was my gateway band. They will always be the number one band that I use to chill out when things aren’t going quite right. Leading on from Pink Floyd I started listening to bands like Yes and Focus and too many other numerous ones I found on Prog Compilation albums. I searched out Internet radio stations and got myself lost. I got more interested in Movie Soundtracks. My favourite soundtrack changes at any given time, but I think The Lord Of The Rings soundtracks by Howard Shore are works of sublime genius. Anything by Vangelis will get me chilled in no time flat too.. I think I have three different versions of the Bladerunner soundtrack.

Outside of music, I enjoy Movies. I am a big Horror/Fantasy/SciFi fan. I know it’s three different types of film, but honestly.. they all do it for me so I am putting them together. As I mentioned above Lord of the Rings is the 21st Century version of the Star Wars Trilogy. I don’t see anything EVER beating those three films for scale and epic. I haven’t watched them as many times as I would have liked but each viewing adds something more from the last viewing. Horror films were a big part of my growing up. My Mum was pretty liberal when it came to what my Brother and I watched. She made sure we knew that it was just a film and more often than not we would be laughing more than screaming. I don’t think I can recall ever having a bad dream as a kid due to watching a film. It rounded me out… I saw life in a different way after a while. It wasn’t all kids TV and Pop songs, there was blood and guts being spilled… and I liked it.

My Family is a big factor in my life. I would pretty much do anything for them. My wife is part of my backbone. Between Linda and my Mum I can honestly say I don’t think I would be here now without them. My Brother, Nik, is the crazy mad genius of the family. Dexter’s Laboratory has nothing on him. He can make music out of anything and can make a piece of art from a Mouse Click. My whole family is just one big blanket that surrounds me in my sometimes cold life and keeps me warm and safe.

There are probably 1000 more words and clichés I could go on to write. But all in all, it boils down to I am just an ordinary bloke who enjoys life on the whole and I hope that, one day, I’ll enjoy the bits that aren’t so good too.

*expect edits on this over time.. it’s very scatted and needs editing.. but it’s been sitting in my drafts folder for a month.. time to move on. P*